my self image

My self image. Wow. This is going to be a hard subject.

I started having a bad self image a couple months ago, I would weigh myself daily and beat myself up in my mind if I didn't meet my standerds. I became a introvert , because I was worried that if people noticed me, they would think that I was fat, ugly, or weird. I didn't think that anyone outside of my family would ever love me. Last month I considered becoming a bulimic, and I told one of my friends. That friend was encouraging and told me not to punish my body, and that if I wanted to look different then I should try to be more healthy. I considered it, and started to watch what I ate and exercise. I started to feel happier and energetic. But then I started to feel down again. That's when I decieded to look to Jesus, and give up my wants. Jesus has healed me. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I love myself now, and it has made me love others even more then I could ever think I could love. And most of all, I love my Jesus

Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother's womb. I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I'd even lived one day.

Psalm 139:14